well the summer holidays are finally here, they seem to have arrived quite quickly but slowly at the same time. September 2011 seems a million years ago, but then at the same time i have no idea where the last year has gone.
so much has happened, and i cant believe that less than a year ago i wasn't even on insulin, i had readings constantly in the teens and twenties and i was fighting for the treatment i needed. a year ago i wasn't in a good state of mind, it was a struggle to get through each day and it was so disheartening to go through every day with yet more high readings and no understanding or help from the doctors. it took several appointments fighting with the consultant, lots of tears and even more determination to get to a point where i was finally getting the help i needed....
its been a difficult year at college too, I've had to work a lot harder to pull up my grades from last year and its been tough and hugely stressful.... not helped by diabetes of course with the up and down sugar levels.... but its finally over, and I've survived (well i have so far, results day is yet to come...)
control wise with diabetes, I've done well, before starting insulin i had a hba1c of 7.5% which although isn't awful, its still not great.... and at last test i had one of 5.8% which according to my consultant is too low (it was that low due to an awful lot of hypos) so I'm working on that, and I'm aiming for about 6.3% at my next check :)
so i have loads to do this summer.... my main priority is sorting out my insulin to carb ratios. I've been running higher than i want to be recently, and although this is partially cos i haven't exactly been counting my carbs properly, its also down to me suddenly needing alot more insulin recently for no reason that i can think of..... this could be a little tricky though as I'll be working for a large portion of the holidays and my ratios are different for work cos i am alot more active...
I've also got my first ever retinopathy appointment, blood tests, consultant appointment, driving lessons and my driving test all within a few weeks of each other.... no pressure or anything..... plus a holiday and results day squeezed in too.... all of which are gunna send my levels all over the place, between extra stress, changes to routines and whatever else, diabetes is bound to play up.... its cool though, me and my insulin pen will smooth it all out between us....
ooh i almost forgot, I've also got uni to prepare for at some point (providing i get in that is...) but they have already set me work to do, and I'm gunna have to pack my stuff and sort out a new doctor and consultant and dsn and prescriptions and bleurghhh..... typically diabetes means that i have like at least 3 times the amount of stuff to organise than other people....
so although the summer holidays might be a break for some, mine is jam packed and i doubt i will get much of a break before Sept.... but that's the way i like it, it keeps me busy and keeps me from thinking about things too much...
lets just hope that the sun finally makes an appearance at some point :)
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