time for a break

to start with, im fully aware that ive completely failed this blog month thing... ive had a bit of a tough week and i just dont have the energy to do any of it. not the blog, not facebook and not twitter either...

i just cant be bothered with any of it.

im exhausted from being on placement or in lectures since half term... but then i didnt really get a break then either as i was working the whole week pretty much. my levels havent been too bad, but ive been stressed out big time. life has just become tough and i just cant be dealing with any more right now.

ive got an essay due in. one thats not finished yet because i cant concentrate. one that i had to get an extention for that i didnt want simply because i havent been able to focus for long enough to do it. that made me feel shit. im not one to ask for help even when im desperate for it. im just not that sort of person, but for this i had to. and it makes me feel like im cheating and using diabetes as an excuse for being lazy when its really not like that at all.

and it sounds harsh. but ive simply had enough of supporting others.... not just other diabetics, but family and everyone else too... theres only one of me, and many of them.... i just need a break.

then i feel ignored. there are people that i usually talk to almost every day or at least when they are available that i havent had a proper conversation with in ages. you know, i wanted to stay friends and keep talking even just for a little every now and then...

so i think im gunna take a break. one from my blog and facebook groups... one from talking about diabetes all the time to raise awareness. its going to become a little bit inside of me, one that i hide from the outside world so i dont get any more abuse from random people. (shout out to the person on twitter who said im diabetic cos i eat too much junk food and sugar.... clever one right there,.... not.)  i dont know how long ill take a break for... maybe a day or even a few weeks.... we will see how things go...