4 Years

Its been 4 yrs.

4yrs since i was sat in that doctors room feeling small and scared

4yrs since i was handed a glucose meter and medication being told that my life would change forever. 

and they were right

Life has changed hugely. I'm not as carefree as i used to be. I am more aware of food and the effect it has on me. I'm regularly at the doctors for appointments with different people to discuss different things. I have holes in my fingers from testing my levels and marks over my body from the insulin injections. 

I have struggled. I'm willing to admit that. 

In fact, I've still not come to terms with being diabetic, with being different, with this being a life long incurable condition. 

But i wouldn't change it.

that might sound mad, but its also brought a lot of positives to my life. 

I'm more independent now, I'm more knowledgeable about my body and do more to take care of it, Ive met some amazing people both through the diabetes online community and the diabetes UK events that I've volunteered on (both of which i wouldn't be part of if i wasn't diabetic) I'm more capable of fighting for what i want and more determined to achieve things that i want in life.

So yes, my life has changed, but its not all bad... so today is to remember and celebrate how far I've come.